It’s About Time
What I mean by this title is that I have finally been able to let go of some personal feelings that I have been having in my life in relation to someone in my life. I normally do not share personal things and I will not go into depth about the situation; however I wanted to write about it because I feel that it is so important. It relates to the concept of “letting go” and how hard that can be for us to do. In all of my writings I talk about how things take time and that we can not make ourselves feel a certain or different way even if we wish that we could. I believe there are some things that happen in our life that are sometimes deeper than we realize and that once we can figure out what that is or why it is that we are holding onto something we can not “let it go” completely.
I feel nothing but gratitude at this moment because I had an epiphany before the end of the holidays and was able to understand what I was doing and why? I have always known on some level but emotionally I still felt the need to hold on even though it was negative and not good for me. The problem was I couldn’t make myself change these feelings until enough time had passed and I healed from what happened. I am not sure if that made any sense and I hope that it does for you. What is interesting is that I have been talking about it, praying about it, writing about it and living my life the best I could. It took me watching two different movies to realize what I was doing and that I needed to “let it go”. It was an extremely powerful and empowering experience. Once I made the decision and talked about it with someone, the very next day I felt better and no longer was carrying those negative feelings around. I know this may sound kind of crazy but for those that work a program or are spiritually connected I am sure get this concept.
For several months all I have been saying is that I am not myself that this experience changed me some for the positive but some for the negative which is what I was holding onto. I am back to feeling like myself. I don’t feel so stuck anymore. I feel amazing. I feel nothing but relief and joy. It felt like such a huge burden had been lifted. And although I have been working on letting it go, I knew that one day everything would fall into place and I would be free!! The key I believe is that I was always open to the process and I trusted and believed that eventually I would feel better and truly be able to “let it go”. It is funny not really but one of my closest friend would say to me just let it go but I kept saying it wasn’t that easy and if I could I would but I just couldn’t and it would happen when it was supposed to happen.
I wanted to share this story with you because I was given a gift and I wanted to share this gift with you. As long as we want to be well and we want to be free of what is holding us back we will be able to as happy as we want to be and for me it is about being balanced!! So I am more happy again. Despite this experience I was still happy with things in my life and how things were going I was just little “off” per say. As I said earlier, Nothing but Gratitude. Letting go allows so much more good to fall into my life. So Life is Good. So whatever you do: Do not give up on feeling better and letting go because eventually your time will come!! Trust me!! My belief is that “All persons are truly greater than they think they are.”